Forgetfully, regretfully, reluctantly we arrive kicking and shoving.
Compressed, squeezed and twisted we somehow make it through to the other side.
The feeling of love is often absent with only the instinct to survive.
The effort required for us to be born surmounts to climbing the tallest mountain before diving into the deepest ocean with no guarantee we will survive.
It’s not a pretty picture when lived up in our head. Just getting used to gravity can feel like lead.
Not everyone makes it but most of us do.
With a push and a shove we come out alone in a world we can barely see.
The pressure alone has done things to my head.
Chemicals, loud noises, bumps and strange vibes come to greet me before my own mother’s eyes.
Spiritual incentives, divine plans and twin flames have all gone out with the fall.
A shity start is almost guaranteed.
So why come out at all?
Am I a boy or am I a girl?
Is there any love in this at all?
Boom, boom I feel her heart beat and I reach out for my food.
Bounce, bounce I discover my own body as my senses unfold.
Where do others finish and where do I begin?
Can someone please help me hear my own heartbeat so I know how to go within?
The world comes out to meet me and I shrink and I will fall, depending on how I got here will tell me how to make sense of this all.
As I learn to breath I find my own tempo and what makes me, me.
The more I persevere the more I find.
Extraordinary levels of acceptance and forgiveness are required if I am to come to terms with it all.
But now I know that when I go to vulnerable places I no longer have to be alone.
As I heal my birth trauma the more I want to live and become part of it all.
Boing, boing I find my bounce,
Boom, boom I find my own heart beat,
As I merge spirit with matter
I become more of who I am.
Thank you water for remembering it all.
A BIRTH EMBODIMENT session on land or in water can support you as an adult in remembering and integrating more of who you already are.
If you are preparing for giving birth, re-visiting your birth material can make for an easier path for you unborn child.
When working with babies and chidren as close to their birth as feels comfortbale, we are helping them process their recent birth experience so that they can settle into their bodies more comfortably.
Sophia Michalopoulou is a baby doula, a therapist and educator who works on land and in water with perinatal themes.
For more information you may contact her directly at email@example.com